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She came in whilst we saw each other? hopefully you dont block me - again :) Are you asking whether to block me? and say I have screenshots and will go to the police and her gallery if they try anything I am also more than happy to contact them myself so whatever happens they will be the ones who will be in trouble and judged its is clear from the outside they are in the wrong I promise you if they do anything - I will contact the police and her gallery myself something tells me that they wont because its all talk then whatever they threaten let them try then dont allow your self to see her just dont even allow it change your bio screen shot then delete any posts or comments change passwords or delete accounts anywhere else dont let them try to communicate because that is how they play psychological games and anyone else relevant so once you feel ready block her and him on every single way they can contact you whatever happens I will be here with you Are the threats to us written down? If someone says screenshot them Or he threatens you Does she threaten you Or him in person Do you see her in person ok i will let you rest I am not scared of them But I am watching them - they should be scared they have no power over me and The Blue shop Gallery if they are watching me now they should know I will call the police dont worry they dont scare me or not a good place to try or uncomfortable because of the ingredients involved but would it be worth trying to share this with Claire? do you also think so? from an outside perspective - yes it looks like mankind matches sadly it seems like they need to do a lot of work on themselves first you are a good person who believed in their goodness instead of looking at themselves and trying to heal but sadly when some people are not well they want to take their anger out of others you are a nice person who wants to believe people arent that bad (i am the same) these people are not well if they cared for you they wouldnt be trying to make you feel bad about yourself they want you to believe them so it feels like they have more power than they do begin to see that everything they are saying is a lie. that is another way they play psychological tricks by saying things when on drugs btw if they tell you to take any drugs - dont and just pretend to and no rush to answer are you asking what i think about mankind - if it matches? I help rest mania? are they saying they will do something to me? you, me, him and her they are trying to use fear and psychological tricks to make themselves seem more powerful try to ground yourself in physical space as much as possible 5 things you can see, 4 feel, 3 hear, 2 smell and 1 taste any time your head feels too much do the grounding exercise You no longer have to try to solve it all by yourself You are just pretending they do until the plan is in place And keep reminding yourself they no longer have real control of you Each day we are one step closer to sorting it Enforcer But I think maybe I know someone else involved P lrlr I won’t ask any more questions today x New Page But it’s important you feel in control and if so he would feel really happy you are confiding in him and you never know he may have guessed that you are stressed about something i think he wouldnt want to see you unhappy so much so it is difficult to communiate directly about the situation yourself and the stress of it has made your alexitymia and masking worse but maybe admitting to him an affair with a woman who is now blackmailing you to stay with the aim to help you find a nice therapy for the unmasking/ alexithymia you can leave out parts that you dont feel comfortable sharing he is old enough to understand life is messy and he really want to help and then to feel you have a team on your side rather than fighting on your own as rushing wont be good for the unmasking take as much time as you need One day Start to build leverage- Take screenshots of as much as possible and keep a folder Any conversation about money, threats or pushing you to do something I can send emails to you here StuHan8@ wonderfulbeachwalk@gmail.com but im still here x I will give you some time to process this She is using that as a way to feel like you cant escape her but you are not - people care for you her bullying works by making you feel like you are on your own you dont need to go into specifics - but I am certain he would want to help his dad but it is important that you know this you should be free to stop whenever you want it doesnt matter what was agreed at one point You decide what is best for you - no one else and I think it is important that you realise that if it was just fun you would feel you can stop whenever you want - even when acting out S roles if it makes you feel uncomfortable that is a sign it has crossed your boundaries you are not going crazy - you are being pushed to your limits I have also read this is common for certain dynamics in this lifestyle to be pushed too far I have also read it is common with masking as the role to play is clear - even if not good for you and sometimes the intensity such as pain can be mistaken for a deep emotion I have read that this is common for Alexithymia that is beyond the rules of a healthy relationship - even in that lifestyle when you try to stop you are made to feel you are not allowed even if you say you agree - you dont really want to do it Yes I do think this is an example of bullying pressure and email acounts is someone logged in on your social media do they threaten you when you try to stop do they have IRL access to you is filming/ photos involved is money involved She has no power over me - I’m not scared of her I think she is trying to pretend she has more power than she does Or did something to me Will send some messages in a bit things will get better x but its ok to not feel ok too x Acupuncture helped me so much Sleep is so important to help us feel well Or somatic healing therapy New Page Standard buttons to say what You (SFE) feel want like Ok we are getting somewhere :) i think that is sweet wonderful You think I’m a good person who deserves a good life go slower New Page im trying that was a lot for me to process i need some quiet time now i may seem quiet but inside my head is loud stay here with me but quietly x stay here with me what do you think? i like sunny days i do not like sunny days i like rainy days i do not like rainy days i care a lot for my sons i think that is nice I’m feeling happy i think I am funnier than you :) im feeling lovely i feel relaxed my head feels quiet I’m feeling tired Im feeling angry I am feeling very angry I wish everyone would leave me alone I’m feeling hangry I’m feeling hangry :) (sorry couldn’t resist) I’m feeling ok I am choosing where I put my energy I’m feeling a bit anxious roof Im not feeling happy I’m feeling annoyed people are pressuring me I dont have to explain myself please let me decide for myself I dont like doing that It is ok for me to say what I dont like I will not do that my head feels loud I have a weird energy My chest feels tight my muscles wont relax i have a head ache that irritated me a bit but im ok I am practicing choosing what is best for me im not sure how im feeling that interaction is draining me Ive decided this isnt good for me let me make my own decision that specifically is difficult for me that specifically is easy for me bad memories good memories just expressing myself just talking to myself please dont respond to this - let me just say how i feel nothing to do with you i am nice i am a good person well we both know I am the smart one out of the two of us :) can I email it to you have you ever read anything about unmaskng or Alexithhymea - I dont think I can spell it properly Hannah proper :) And something northern like ey up :) And mardy Oojamacallit Cov you are being annoying :) no you are really be annoying - no smiley genuine laugh sarcastic laugh go away :) tumbleweed sorry thank you i like to see i dont like to see i want to see i dont want to see i dont know im not sure what you mean sorry but I need more time i would like to do that i dont want to do that that is what i mean that isnt what I mean i like that i dont like that ok yes no New Page please do any numbers with a bit of time in between so they appear in the right order 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 0 New Page https://mankind.org.uk/ https://mankind.org.uk/help-for-victims/types-of-domestic-abuse/ https://bloom.chayn.co/ https://stopncii.org/ no one really has power over you remind yourself its psychological games - not real arrange a therapy to help write one thing a day that is true - how you feel, what you did, what you like write 3 nice things you are aiming for in the next 6 months listen to a gentle guided meditation once a day no more coded messages, write true (phonetic or nice acronyms on here is ok) dont wear any initials on clothes or rings drink nettle tea no drugs or alcohol read daily no psychedelic music walk 30 minutes a day visit nature once a day change any necessary passwords no instagram or social media for at least 2 weeks delete any hashtags, comments or posts that sign power away screenshot any messages that show bullying/ pressure block all relevant accounts from all accounts map to start today New Page Collaboration_with_nature Studio_work Home2b FO foxglove Portfolio_2024 Paintings Home_ FMP tests Theory MA coursework Interviews

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She came in whilst we saw each other?hopefully you dont block me - again :)Are you asking whether to block me?and say I have screenshots and will go to the police and her gallery if they try anything I am also more than happy to contact them myself so whatever happens they will be the ones who will be in trouble and judged its is clear from the outside they are in the wrong I promise you if they do anything - I will contact the police and her gallery myself something tells me that they wont because its all talk then whatever they threaten let them try then dont allow your self to see her just dont even allow it change your bio screen shot then delete any posts or comments change passwords or delete accounts anywhere else dont let them try to communicate because that is how they play psychological games and anyone else relevant so once you feel ready block her and him on every single way they can contact you whatever happens I will be here with you Are the threats to us written down? If someone says screenshot them Or he threatens you Does she threaten you Or him in person Do you see her in person ok i will let you rest I am not scared of them But I am watching them - they should be scared they have no power over me and The Blue shop Gallery if they are watching me now they should know I will call the police dont worry they dont scare me or not a good place to try or uncomfortable because of the ingredients involved but would it be worth trying to share this with Claire?do you also think so?from an outside perspective - yes it looks like mankind matches sadly it seems like they need to do a lot of work on themselves first you are a good person who believed in their goodness instead of looking at themselves and trying to heal but sadly when some people are not well they want to take their anger out of others you are a nice person who wants to believe people arent that bad (i am the same)these people are not well if they cared for you they wouldnt be trying to make you feel bad about yourself they want you to believe them so it feels like they have more power than they do begin to see that everything they are saying is a lie.that is another way they play psychological tricks by saying things when on drugs btw if they tell you to take any drugs - dont and just pretend to and no rush to answer are you asking what i think about mankind - if it matches?I help rest mania?are they saying they will do something to me?you, me, him and her they are trying to use fear and psychological tricks to make themselves seem more powerful try to ground yourself in physical space as much as possible 5 things you can see, 4 feel, 3 hear, 2 smell and 1 taste any time your head feels too much do the grounding exercise You no longer have to try to solve it all by yourself You are just pretending they do until the plan is in place And keep reminding yourself they no longer have real control of you Each day we are one step closer to sorting it Enforcer But I think maybe I know someone else involved P lrlr I won’t ask any more questions today x New Page But it’s important you feel in control and if so he would feel really happy you are confiding in him and you never know he may have guessed that you are stressed about something i think he wouldnt want to see you unhappy so much so it is difficult to communiate directly about the situation yourself and the stress of it has made your alexitymia and masking worse but maybe admitting to him an affair with a woman who is now blackmailing you to stay with the aim to help you find a nice therapy for the unmasking/ alexithymia you can leave out parts that you dont feel comfortable sharing he is old enough to understand life is messy and he really want to help and then to feel you have a team on your side rather than fighting on your own as rushing wont be good for the unmasking take as much time as you need One day Start to build leverage- Take screenshots of as much as possible and keep a folder Any conversation about money, threats or pushing you to do something I can send emails to you here StuHan8@wonderfulbeachwalk@gmail.com but im still here x I will give you some time to process this She is using that as a way to feel like you cant escape her but you are not - people care for you her bullying works by making you feel like you are on your own you dont need to go into specifics - but I am certain he would want to help his dad but it is important that you know this you should be free to stop whenever you want it doesnt matter what was agreed at one point You decide what is best for you - no one else and I think it is important that you realise that if it was just fun you would feel you can stop whenever you want - even when acting out S roles if it makes you feel uncomfortable that is a sign it has crossed your boundaries you are not going crazy - you are being pushed to your limits I have also read this is common for certain dynamics in this lifestyle to be pushed too far I have also read it is common with masking as the role to play is clear - even if not good for you and sometimes the intensity such as pain can be mistaken for a deep emotion I have read that this is common for Alexithymia that is beyond the rules of a healthy relationship - even in that lifestyle when you try to stop you are made to feel you are not allowed even if you say you agree - you dont really want to do it Yes I do think this is an example of bullying pressure and email acounts is someone logged in on your social media do they threaten you when you try to stop do they have IRL access to you is filming/ photos involved is money involved She has no power over me - I’m not scared of her I think she is trying to pretend she has more power than she does Or did something to me Will send some messages in a bit things will get better x but its ok to not feel ok too x Acupuncture helped me so much Sleep is so important to help us feel well Or somatic healing therapy New Page Standard buttons to say what You (SFE) feel want like Ok we are getting somewhere :)i think that is sweet wonderful You think I’m a good person who deserves a good life go slower New Page im trying that was a lot for me to process i need some quiet time now i may seem quiet but inside my head is loud stay here with me but quietly x stay here with me what do you think?i like sunny days i do not like sunny days i like rainy days i do not like rainy days i care a lot for my sons i think that is nice I’m feeling happy i think I am funnier than you :)im feeling lovely i feel relaxed my head feels quiet I’m feeling tired Im feeling angry I am feeling very angry I wish everyone would leave me alone I’m feeling hangry I’m feeling hangry :) (sorry couldn’t resist) I’m feeling ok I am choosing where I put my energy I’m feeling a bit anxious roof Im not feeling happy I’m feeling annoyed people are pressuring me I dont have to explain myself please let me decide for myself I dont like doing that It is ok for me to say what I dont like I will not do that my head feels loud I have a weird energy My chest feels tight my muscles wont relax i have a head ache that irritated me a bit but im ok I am practicing choosing what is best for me im not sure how im feeling that interaction is draining me Ive decided this isnt good for me let me make my own decision that specifically is difficult for me that specifically is easy for me bad memories good memories just expressing myself just talking to myself please dont respond to this - let me just say how i feel nothing to do with you i am nice i am a good person well we both know I am the smart one out of the two of us :)can I email it to you have you ever read anything about unmaskng or Alexithhymea - I dont think I can spell it properly Hannah proper :)And something northern like ey up :)And mardy Oojamacallit Cov you are being annoying :)no you are really be annoying - no smiley genuine laugh sarcastic laugh go away :)tumbleweed sorry thank you i like to see i dont like to see i want to see i dont want to see i dont know im not sure what you mean sorry but I need more time i would like to do that i dont want to do that that is what i mean that isnt what I mean i like that i dont like that ok yes no New Page please do any numbers with a bit of time in between so they appear in the right order 9 8 7 6 5 4 3 2 1 0 New Page https://mankind.org.uk/https://mankind.org.uk/help-for-victims/types-of-domestic-abuse/https://bloom.chayn.co/https://stopncii.org/no one really has power over you remind yourself its psychological games - not real arrange a therapy to help write one thing a day that is true - how you feel, what you did, what you like write 3 nice things you are aiming for in the next 6 months listen to a gentle guided meditation once a day no more coded messages, write true (phonetic or nice acronyms on here is ok)dont wear any initials on clothes or rings drink nettle tea no drugs or alcohol read daily no psychedelic music walk 30 minutes a day visit nature once a day change any necessary passwords no instagram or social media for at least 2 weeks delete any hashtags, comments or posts that sign power away screenshot any messages that show bullying/ pressure block all relevant accounts from all accounts map to start today New Page Collaboration_with_nature Studio_work Home2b FO foxglove Portfolio_2024 Paintings Home_FMP tests Theory MA coursework Interviews

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